CT (
liesdontfindyou) wrote2025-01-25 11:03 pm
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Don't forget to breathe
Saying things have moved fast would be patently ridiculous, given the months she spent in denial, but somehow it still feels that way. It's still a little scary, just how much she trusts and cares for Ellen, but by now Connie finds it impossible to imagine her life without her in it. The benefits of letting her in outweigh the risks, something she never really thought she'd be able to say, and the dance they've fallen into now feels equal, the back and forth deliberate and not a chase. Waking up next to her is more reassuring than it has any right to be and coming home to her makes everything feel less... distant. She might still screw this up. But right now, she'd rather take the chance than go back to pretending the love wasn't there at all.
Trust exercise
Crichton is one of CT's closest friends on the island, if not the closest. An unfortunately ghostly privacy violation lead to an early breaking of the ice, and since then it's only gotten easier to talk more openly with him over time. He's able to bring out a more mischievous side of her that isn't always easy to bring out from behind the wall and, frankly, he worries about her physical and mental well-being more than she does. He's got a good head on his shoulders and he's reliable in a crisis, and she... trusts him. She genuinely trusts him. After the nightmares, he might understand some of the things she's lost better than almost anyone else.
The first to push back
If CT had a credit for every thing she and Felix Gaeta had in common, she'd be worryingly rich—seriously, the list just keeps growing. Traitors in the eyes of almost everyone they knew, having misplaced their trust one time too many, summarily executed for their actions, and still steadfast in their belief that they couldn't just sit and do nothing, they've been through hell and come out the other side much worse for wear but still moving. She understands him and she thinks he understands her, too. Smart, and resourceful, and good company besides, he's someone she's learned to put trust in.
Hell of a boss
CT still isn't quite sure what to call her and Valdis's dynamic, but it feels closer to friendship than it once did and their working relationship is as close as CT has ever had. She appreciates the kind of boss that's feet to the ground with her people and she appreciates that Valdis has put trust in her, time and again, both with information and responsibilities. Valdis has been transparent with CT in a way that makes it a lot easier to put trust in her in return and to believe her when she says something needs to be kept close to the chest, and apparently Valdis trusts her judgement. She hopes to live up to that as their work continues.
Prodigal daughter
CT cannot trust Carolina. Not yet, not even after everything she's said has happened back home, not even now that she knows CT was right. Carolina may finally see her father for what he is, but she is still the leader that helped put down the 'traitor' in their midst and it's impossible to forgive and forget such a thing so easily. The truth charm helped with being sure that she was, at least, telling the truth about home and may even have closed some of the gap in understanding between the two of them, but CT still finds it hard to shrug off her paranoid survival instincts. Could they really work together, if they make it home? Could they really finish this, or would it all just fall apart again?
Better late than never
CT was never close with North, back in the program. She got in early with South, instead, and always struggled to understand how North couldn't see what was happening between them as South was cast aside. That and she butted against the way he seemed to hate to rock the boat, being such a reflexive boat rocker herself. But now, between how things went with South and the fact he did, apparently, turn on the program once he knew the truth, she's more willing to give him a chance. He never did anything to her and they need all the understanding they can get, these days.
Old wounds
South was her best friend and, if she's honest with herself, could have become something else if either of them had been brave enough to make a move. CT has a lot of regrets about having to leave her behind, about not being able to tell her the truth, but she knew all too well what South's response would be and nothing South has done since getting into town has proved her wrong. She hates to see her hurting like this, but until things improve... she's just not sure what she's meant to do to help without putting herself in the firing line.
Sharp as a knife
CT does not know Cassandra well, but what she's knows of her paints the picture of an intelligent, cunning young woman with a sharp wit, considered actions and a carefully maintained face that may or may not go deeper than it appears. The nightmares and the opera have given them both an insight into the other's world that they did not offer of their own volition and that, perhaps, has started to break down the barrier between their individual facades, if slowly. An ally worth listening to.
Unobstructed truth
Neil is an interesting man. An ally, a friend, who has been invaluable through his work at the Ocularum with plenty to teach about the situation on the island. It can't be said that she truly trusts the man, especially not now that she's got reason to be suspicious of any reasonably prominent local, but she still believes in his approach over any other local organisation and relies on him for insights in areas he's best versed in, and he listens to her. That's more than she can say of some allies of the past. He is, if nothing else, someone she's not inclined to point fingers at when better suspects are out there.
Called bluff
CT and Dahlia have barely even talked, but they have no reason to trust each other so far as they could throw each other and CT sees little chance of that changing. Between Dahlia's ties to Aster and CT's behaviour in the course of starting to uncover them, CT can no more fault Dahlia for however she feels about her as she could simply stop finding what Dahlia is and represents disquieting. And unless something big changes, it's going to stay that way.
Authority of omission
Cerrit was one of the first people CT met on the island, and the one who brought her into the Enforcers. It's hard to say if she truly trusted him, but she was willing to try and they worked together well enough before the reality of his lies of omission came out. Were she thinking clearer, CT would have recognised it as a choice she herself would likely have made, but with her still raw from the betrayals and lies of Project Freelancer she reacted in a way she'll come to regret in time, especially now he's gone.
RELATIONSHIPHERE
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